colour pencils

2008-01-06T21:14:00.000-08:00

dnt worry,
i did even tot of turnin back
i m happy wit everythin nw.
i oni say i stil think of dos things we did n dos places we went.
nth else.
since u put words til lik this,
i wnt even bother u again .
nt even in here.
all u wanted was jus mii lettin u go, findin new love.
den, pls.. jus go ahead.
bye.

2008-01-06T01:51:00.000-08:00

i think it doesn't matter anymore... wad's done is done. the damaged is done and everything is torn to the extreme. u chose the path. u took the step out. no more repeating of history. all u know is to say. wads the point... ur character is not going to change. i can't change u. u are always like this. y wait till when its totally torn and then say so much, when there was a chance but u took a different road instead. and insisted the road was right. now u're looking back hesitating. expecting me to stay rooted all the time while u decided to leave and continue with ur new path. for the second time. it doesn't matter the reason. the fact is there. u left for the second time to a greener path. u didn't wait. so now tat u've gone so far, dun look back anymore. dun leave me with more aches. let me heal. continue with ur new path and cherish it. i'll keep the memories...

........................

2008-01-04T21:49:00.000-08:00

...
i dnt know.
i oni knw ur words contains no more love.
can feel u are veri happy nw.
my feelings n six sense tell mii so .

2008-01-04T13:43:00.000-08:00

no u are wrong. nv have left at all. but the fact is u are already with him for so long. wads the point of saying all this... in the end all i have is still the memories. the times were so funny and cute. but like i say, in the end the fact is u have him so just be happy then..

2008-01-04T03:19:00.000-08:00

u take cares too.
memories always livin in mii too.
e way u talk,
i arld knw i had leave ur heart.
quite sad, but ...
u are always livin in me.
i stil think of the way u play wit mii n everything.
...everythin n evrything.

2008-01-03T21:23:00.000-08:00

thanks but don't u think its too late... u are already going to be with him for 4 mths whats the point of saying so much. since u are happy with him then its better i'd leave u alone. u take gd care. i'll keep the memories always...

end.

2007-12-30T20:38:00.000-08:00

its the last day of the year .
end of 2007.
all the ups n down , everything n everything.
u dnt hav to remb mii anymore.
cause the better year u wish, is comin in hours time.
dnt how hav u been doiin, but i guess everythin is fine, veri fine.
jus to let u noe since that time u dnt lik my msn passwrd to be dardar,
i change it to fat ass. but it jus smth i nver say.
and, ya.. hope u wil have a real real better year ahead.
a year totally w/o mii le.
-end of 2007-

2007-12-24T15:00:00.000-08:00

ya it doesn't matter to u anymore. u are happy now so carry on with ur life with him. since u are so happy then carry on be happy. nice pic with him huh. i can't act like u. so dun say so much when u are already happy with him. just leave everything behind with me. u dun have to keep anything. leave everything to me. i'll keep everything with me. u dun need any. gd or bad.

merry x'mas

2007-12-24T04:42:00.000-08:00

i did nt deny anything. and i did mention e fact that der was nth wrong wit him.
but thrust or no thrust, it all does nt matter anymore.
that day pass by the ferris wheel.
lights was on. pink, blue n green.. veri nice.
and pass by some expressway, look out.. saw a long - lighted bridge
i knew it was cosy bay.
this is the oni two things worth to remb .
merry x'mas.
wishin u a better year ahead.

2007-12-22T12:38:00.000-08:00

u are the one who put me through everything in the first place. from the start, u take him more importantly than me. then now, u are the one who has a bf yet keep giving me shit by saying i have someone else. u shld stop ur nonsense. u are the one who make me lose my faith time and again. u can continue to deny all u wan.

2007-12-21T21:49:00.000-08:00

fiine. u wan believe wad den wad la.
drunk is nt an excuse, but its smth that makes mii dnt knw wad am i doiin.
and all along der is no affairs between us or wad so ever,
all along u also nvr believe mii, i arld dnt bother le.
i wish u happiness den.
out of my exs, u are e oni one who remember mii in this way.
wit all the awful remarks and everything.
if u dnt believe ppl,
den in the first place dnt bother to say anythin at all.
remembered- u used the word affair on me.
but everyone knws der is nth between me n him.
thats it.
listen to anythin for all u lyk
u alrd left my world, so stop sayin all this.
go to dos friends of urs.
they are REAL AND THE TRUEST TO U IN THIS WORLD!
looks lyk, the gap betwwen us is beyond repair.
so jus leave the gap der den .
AND STOP SAYIN NONSENSE TO MAKE MII UPSET.

2007-12-21T12:41:00.000-08:00

so being drunk is an excuse. i already know something is between the 2 of u long ago. u hide some things and he hide some things. im not stupid. u ppl will cover ur own asses. then wad about? u are still happy with him so shut the fuck up. u cannot live without a guy. me? till now i dun have one. believe? when i put all my trust and faith in it, all i got is lies lies and affairs. tats it. u can continue cover up all u wan. give me all the excuses u have. im not trusting anyone. i dun side anyone. i just listen to wad all of u have to say. from all the things tat is said. i know the truth already. both of u. same.

...

2007-12-20T21:14:00.000-08:00

... fiine. u alrd mentioned i was drunk. how would i noe wad am i doiin? and ever think of why am i drunk.
come on la, he is jus lyk my best friend and thats it.
i no longer lyk him or wad. that was the past .
but its ok, mii and him are nt even friends.
continue hangin ard wit them ks?
dnt blog anymore.
u only listen to every one except mii,
frm last time til nw. its all along lyk this.
and he even gt ask mii go his house or wad, did i go??
I REJECTED HIM. IF I LYK HIM, IF I WANNA BETRAY U DEN, I WIL DO IT.
BUT TOO BAD, IN UR EYES, DER IS ONI UR FRIENDS DE WORDS.
DEN DNT BOTHER TO VERIFY HERE.

in this whole world, oni u can break my heart .
i hate u.
aftr this blog, i m sure u wnt even wil miss mii or wad anymore.
the nex time, pls believe in that someone who mean really lot to u,
the whoever..
take care.

2007-12-17T05:52:00.000-08:00

u really did nt blog anymore.
i guess, someone else had alrd entered ur life.
take cares, all the best .
i think this is my last entry here.
since, u also nt bloggin anymore/.

2007-12-02T03:19:00.000-08:00

i feel like i'm on a long deserted road. i see no ending on both ends. And my car is gone. stolen and driven away. because i didn't lock my car while i left it for some fresh air. and now its just me and the long, unbearably deserted road. so lost. should i have left my car for fresh air? should i have locked my car? the sky is no longer clear and blue and the air is no longer fresh but i'm damn awake now yet so lost to contemplate my next move. teach me how.

2007-11-21T04:08:00.000-08:00

ya, u're right. u will nv admit ur mistakes. i'm always a scapegoat to everything u did. even ur friends know who's right who's wrong. tat is y u think i snatch them away from u. ever think about everything u did? u are nv remorseful at all. u and him very happy now already. u will like him even more as day pass. so its ok. u can cry for him. so all the things u said to me is not only for me. wad u did with him and what u said to him, i nv know. i apologise for my harsh words. tats all. u don't want to accept my apology its ok. at least i'm brave enough to admit my mistakes and not always find a scapegoat to every mistakes and push the blame on others. u can put all the blame on me. at the end of the day, ur heart will nv lie to urself. wad u did, wad u said. only u know urself. wad u did and said to him, only u will know. learn to admit ur mistakes. dun think everything can be kept a secret. when u do something wrong, u know even ur friends has their morale and they are human too. they sympathise not only for u but for the victim. u know u very well. stop being selfish anymore. u're not being true to him, to me, and to urself. although i dun like him, i think some things have to be fair. since u care for him and can cry for him too, its ok now. i won't bother u anymore. its not u who is alone. its because of the things u did and u want to hide tat makes it hard for u to talk to ur friends. because u know they knew me, because u know u're hiding things from me which u dont wan me to know. u can confine to irene. isn't it great? he is her friend. i'm not her friend. and she's the one who told u its ok to give the num although its not all her decision. u could have chose not to give in the end. but u did. after all i've heard and thought it over, i think its time i let u go. cos its not me who have to change. its u. u have to stop being so selfish. way to selfish. if u ever put urself in my shoes, imagine u not having and friends because i said i don't like all ur friends and stop u from being with them, then i tell u my friends are my friends and u can only have me. no friends for u, and u must be with me. be friendly to my friends. BUT they are not ur friends, they are MY friends only. and i get to go out with my friends, while u either come with me or u can only stay at home. and end of the day when we broke up, i tell u i love u, but i went for another girl, and be with her. yet i still insist tat u cannot mix with ur friends, u should not be with guys to prove tat u still is sincere and love me while, ME, happily holding my girl's hand, kissing and hugging. how would u feel? would u feel even worse? would u say i'm selfish then? and i cry and say tat u hurt me with the things u did but i cry when i quarrel with my girl and she wanted to break up. would u think i'm selfish? a hypocrite? a liar? and also, this is not the first time i did this to u, how would u feel? imagine while u're working and couldn't accompany me, i was outside talking to girls and saying mushy things to girls behind ur back. when u caught me i told u i was just talking for fun and it don't mean anything and i wun fall for the girl. and i end up being with the girl when we quarrel and broke up. and yet i keep lying to u and hiding it from u. and even went to the girl's house and tell u i'm visiting my auntie. how's the feeling?and after i broke up with her i came back to u and said i was just fooling around but i love u. and its because u neglected me. but actually i am still contacting the girl behind ur back calling her darling, until u caught me again. how does it feel again? can ur little heart take so much? and to forgive? to forgive all the lies and all the time being so faithful to just me yet keep being accuse of being a flirt while actually the one who is contacting girls is me and not u. think about everything. think about everything without bias. stand on the neutral side. how would u have feel. to swallow all ur hurt and pride and being called irritating and a pest. but u have been faithful and forgave everything. do u think i cherished u? do u think the things i did proved tat i'm faithful?

now, u can put all the blame on me. i take every single reason, fault, excuse. i'll be the scapegoat. for the unhappy and painful events tat occurred. u can now live ur life happily, dun have to be afraid of ur friends, dun have lie and hide things anymore. u can happily be with him. forget about me.

Because i'm the sole reason all the unhappiness and hurt happened. i'm the sinner. u're the angel. i go to hell and u go to heaven. and y? because i did love u. even if u will nv admit everyting. i wish u well from now on. take care.

...

2007-11-21T02:06:00.000-08:00

.......... and whichever friend of mine,
u want it, jus go ahead.thanks to u,
i dnt wan anything anemore.
der is no such things as friends,
cause they always ended up beiin snatch away.
.........
DEAD.
ALONE.

..

2007-11-21T01:47:00.000-08:00

its nt the first time u use all the ugly words on mii
its jus that, it get worse n uglier ach time u say mii.
a broken vase wil nvr be in shape again no matter
how u glue it bac.
sometimes, sorry jus dnt wrk anemore,
jus forget this bitch,
jus leave her alone.
-can the world be beautiful again?
gone...

no one.

2007-11-20T22:21:00.000-08:00

this is jus a world full of ugly ugly words
that wil pierce right into ppl heart.
words that wil stay in memories forever.
- when u are gone.

2007-11-20T19:18:00.001-08:00

你的笑絕對的神奇...

我像个残废, 飞不出你的世界.

2007-11-19T19:51:00.001-08:00

i miss u.

suddenly..

2007-11-18T23:29:00.000-08:00

..............and suddenly,
i miss kite flying too.
that time was e first n the last time
i went to fly a kite.
real real high.

?

2007-11-18T22:27:00.000-08:00

wad euu mean? i really dnt understand.
beiin tgt doesnt mean loving..
jus lyk mii and u, we are nvr loving.
ppl even find we dnt look lyk couple before..
but i am stil tgt wit u.. thats the answer to ur question .
take lotsa care.
i m jus a fuckin bitch to u.
and that shall remain as wad i always meant to u...
...........................................

2007-11-18T09:47:00.000-08:00

破碎到不能破碎.

痛到了不能再痛.

伤痛都已无法消灭.

为什么你存心用尽我宽容......

sadd

2007-11-11T21:28:00.000-08:00

HAPPY 21 BIRTHDAY.
glad that this yr u are nt alone
glad that ur family celebrate for ya
so everything is fiine without mii.
at least u hav a happy happy bithday.
but not mii.
i m sad for nt beiin der too .
u broke my heart first.
and i had nvr forget ur bdae at all.

2007-11-10T12:03:00.000-08:00

went out with my whole family today... they decided to celebrate my bday earlier becos today is mom's off day... but i feel something is missing...my mom and the uncle. my sister and her bf. but me? alone. u were missing... anyway... went to ding tai fung for dinner... after tat my mom bought me a fcuk t shirt as a present. my sis got me a wallet and a pair of slippers... i love family days like this... but as i said, something is missing tat makes it not perfect...

So Busy With Work. So Many Thoughts. So Tired...

cry

2007-11-08T21:36:00.000-08:00

readiin ur entry brim tears in my eyes. i cannot cry cause i stil need to wrk.
ya indeed, hongkong did really leave mi a nice memory .
true, reality is cruel.
der is nvr a second trip for us anymore .
i wanna go taiwan,
but u say we wnt be gg this yr.
in the end the curse come true,
we wnt hav the chance to go anymore.
sick, very sick.

2007-11-08T09:26:00.000-08:00

i suddenly thought of the hong kong holiday... it brings back many many happy memories. my first time on the plane, my first ever holiday, my first honeymoon, my first time in a foreign land without any help except for a map! i'm smiling while i thought of the things we did... it was really memorable and unforgettable. suddenly i feel myself being very tired and in need of a gd time out and forget all the troubles. go abroad again. to taiwan. but i need to earn even more to get to go... then comes the sad part... the reality. its all not possible now. now tat we seperated. i always wanted a second trip. but many things happen and be4 i could save up its not happening already...

Happy Memories. I Can Feel It Like It Just Happened.

2007-11-07T22:00:00.000-08:00

got into an accident just now... just not my day. finally my career and work starts to pick up and this type of things happen. and its not even my fault. the driver from the minor road did not stop and give way and just came out. i did not have enough time to stop and i turn away but end up still hitting the side of his car then the kerb... my collar bone hurts. and lastly i already not feeling gd recently. u didn't know anything. i dun wanna name names but i really did not do anything wrong. maybe one day u find out the ppl and the truth and understand everything then u'll know i did not just drive anygirls around. u dunno sometimes its ur friend's girl and ur friend and its hard to reject. not say drive ppl i dun know around. at least all along i did not forget. and i did not find another girl. even though u had move on and even told ppl u are getting married. when u know who told me, u'll know the whole story and know i did not do anything wrong. i'm not a taxi driver and i hate to be a taxi driver so i dun do such things as to drive ppl around.

SOMETIMES I FEEL I HAVEN'T ACTUALLY MOVED ON... STUCKED IN NO MANS' LAND...

.....

2007-11-07T21:00:00.000-08:00

u gt into an accident today. ya at that moment i was quite shock but glad that u are ok.

anyway learn to drive carefully.

take lotsa care.

and i really lik the song xin gan bao beii alot.

dnt understand why i wil reply u when u msg mii too.

i wil try real hard nt to anymore.

i was here

2007-11-07T02:02:00.000-08:00

ya.. finally i log in ler. after so long. jus this little while when i m away, everything changes.
i read ur entry . jus move on.. i dnt i exist in ur life since long long ago.
thrust mii, if i want to do smth, i can do it. even forgetting u.
cos, i m alrd transparent to u long ago.
the frnt seat no longer belongs to onli me..
but more n more gals. u drive them ard without even rejectin or sayin much.
but to me, gals u had been things is always so diff.
miss ur awful cooking..
miss sleepin til no time limit. but i promise u i wnt even think abt them anymore
4 gals in ur car.. wad a unforgettable things i heard.
fine den..
i gif up.
u do wad ever u wish, cos my words and feelin are nt important at all.
take care.
i m glad i was once the queen of ur heart
and thanks for beiin the one der when i was real sick or i got injured.
u always brim mii to the doc n hospitals or anywher.
i wnt contact u ler.
cause i wnt want to know or hear hw many gals u had been drivin ard.
thats kind of feelings suck.
jus take it as by ranning away is my fault den,
even when i ran away, u had nvr cared.
deeply injured.

2007-11-06T20:37:00.000-08:00

Woke up to another day but till now it still hurts when i think. Nv had a day past without missing u... When i let it sink, its all over me... I gave u everything that i was cause i wanna have a really true love. Don't ever wanna have to go and give u up... Stayed up till 4 in the morning and still thinking. What have u been doing for all this time... All i wanted was to know i was safe, don't want to lose the love i've found. It's not fair how u are. Nv saved all ur love up for me alone. Gave u all of me. Gave u everything i got. It really hurts. But i guess its alright.

The tears are pouring deep inside...

GONE... FOREVER...

2007-10-20T23:55:00.000-07:00

WHAT U SAY AND WHAT U DID IS FOREVER DIFFERENT. U WILL ALWAYS BE THE SAME. U CANNOT LIVE WITHOUT GUYS. THIS IS U. ALL THE THINGS U TRY TO KEEP FROM ME, WILL ALWAYS END UP BEEN TOLD BY OTHERS TO ME. DON'T THINK THAT THINGS CAN BE KEPT AS A SECRET. GOD KNOWS WHAT U DID. I'M REALLY VERY TIRED. THIS WILL BE THE FIRST AND THE LAST POST. BY THE TIME U GOT THE TIME TO SEE THIS, U HAVE LOST WHAT U WANT. BECAUSE U THINK THAT BEING WILDFUL AND TRYING TO HAVE FUN IS CORRECT. U ARE WRONG. DON'T TELL ME ABOUT ME WITH MY FRIENDS. AT LEAST I'M WITH MY FRIENDS ONLY. NOTHING MORE. U CHOOSE THIS PATH KNOWING THE CONSEQUENCES. U CHOSE IT. THEN LIVE WITH IT FOREVER. DON'T REGRET YOUR DECISION WHEN U FINALLY WOKE UP AND FINALLY UNDERSTAND ALL I SAID WAS ALL LOGICAL AND MAKES DAMN SENSE. U JUST DUN WANT TO LISTEN AND GET IT INTO YOURSELF. LASTLY, ALL THE TIMES I HAD, i CHERISHED IT ALOT AND I WAS GALD. BUT UNFORTUNATELY U CAN'T BE THE FAITHFUL ONE TAT I WAS. MAYBE U WILL ALWAYS THINK U ARE RIGHT AND U WAS FAITHFUL. TOUCH YOUR OWN HEART AND THINK. ARE U? HOPE U WILL BE HAPPY AND I KNOW U WILL. TAKE CARE.

Sometimes leaving is the best way to show that u love someone. 080606. The End.

nice saturday =)

2007-08-19T01:56:00.000-07:00

just wakie. ytd went boat quay wit ah soon beii n rachel n biggy. - nos(numbers). nt biad. =) get to chill, leran the 5. 10 game and drink. last time i can oni drink 2 glass i toh liao. ytd i drank ard 8 - 10. feel veri high, and after i step outof the pub. I VOMITED LIK HELL.

BIGGY SAY THE NOODLES EVEN CAME OUT FRM MY NOSE. (had abalone noodles earlier on) and i drink veri seldom can vomit, but ytd i did it!!! and today i dnt feel so terrible when i wakie. *shiok. i m a good drinker nw =) and i know hw to play five ten too . hoho.

wrkk - well sales nt veri good for the past two weeks, WHY?? PPL WADS WRONG WIT U ALL, WHY NO SHOPPING??? =(

ITS OK, AS USUAL TRY AGAIN. JIA YOU. gonna bathe n go lot 1 watch 881 ler. i m hungry!!!!!!

i really enjoye my sat night. everyone was nice n friendly.

big hugs!

princess happie.

sunday, 19/08/07, 5.06pm

sleeepin day.

2007-08-12T10:22:00.000-07:00

another week had passed!! sigh. ytd went zouk. quite nice but din get to enjoy much i was oni der for 1 hr?? -squashed. lol on the wall . veri pack sial.

beii was der too. to catch xx wit e bitch intrudin their relationship. and we pretend we are jus nobody and WE SIT AT THE SAME TABLE SOMEMORE. at first sum1 tell us xx wil be at zouk cause its the bitch bdae (*note- that bitch is call serene ng, frm cck sec and its sum1 almost everyone hated). but he was nt der lei..

i told beii to be patient, xx cfm wil appear. and in the end, i was right. den the nonsense u can imagine started le lo. when the official gf met the mistress n when the guy is also der. guess guess guess ... XX RAN AWAY. COWARD. DNT DARE ACCEPT FACT. BOO. actually beii should have left him long ago, who dnt xx is famous for bein a hongster?? but i think is true love ba..

aft that, SOME1 BOMB MII. promise to come fetch mii after zouk but i cant get him. how disappointed!

den ah soon call her friends come 3 guys 3 hal in a small car, doin nth the whole night, smoke n rot and the driver so kayu wan. it took mii lik one hr to reach hm (8am!) kao.

bad day.

zzzzz.

13/ 08 / 07

1.34am

princess moody.

weekend.

2007-08-04T12:27:00.000-07:00

weekend!! haix, well tmr i gota wrk k. suppose to be my off. i jjus finish 2 mid night shift n tmr i muz go wrkk early in the morning.

hey i jus gt my sel a lv wallet. cool huh. i bought two infact. 1 for mii 1 for juan. bdae present ma. but shared wit ah soon n charlene. cost mii $320 each wor!!! =/

the best part ish the staff only charge mii the price of one wallet. and i din even ask the price in the first place.

so when they tell mii is 320 so i jus pay lo.. and i happily go tell pll i gt a good deal. i was alrd suspectin the person might have make a mistake cos on the receipt oni indicate 1...

den at night the person frm lv call me say they undercharge mii . wad u expect miii to say?? pretend i oni gt one ah?? they gt my particulars and all that u noe. i dnt wan to land up in the police stat cos i buy branded buy until so "lak seh" so i tell them to charge back to my card lor. =/

*shake head, wad a "wonderful" experience. lol.

shower,
smoke.
relax,
sleep.
tmr after wrkk go walk walk
princess enen =)

no time no talk talk

2007-07-27T07:04:00.000-07:00

ahhh... been 1 mth plus since my last blog. sigh. partly because i gt a veri selfish brother who thinks he own the computer la.and i cant be bothered to beg him to let mii use the com. hmmm this 1 mth plus, I M FINE.
except during one of the weeks, i fell so damn sick. i gt a asthma attack . =/
but i m better ler. =)

am at far east nw, wow i m shock by the crowd today, GHOST TOWN .TSK.. TSK.. * shake head.
using jb's portable modem to blog in shop. aiiya. BORED LA.
gg bac to cine soon .. til 1 am . *pengz.

nt veri happy wit biggy reccently over 1 bag. STEP.
SO I M NT GONNA FEATURE HIM IN MY BLOG MORE THE REST OF AT LEAST 5 ENTRIES =)

had a terrible mth =/ sigh..
the next time i willing to blog again, i hope i gt smth better to say .

....... crying princess =(.
10.07 pm 27/07/07 pandoras box; far east plaza, alone, ROTTING.

back.

2007-06-16T12:35:00.000-07:00

yea yea.. today is the last day of wrkkin day. woo.. happy sunday comin up=)

at biggy hse nw.. biggy cook spag for mii today.. last week is udon. hoho. every sat is cookin day la. thats y u cant find mii at night hangouts anymore..

he cook, i wil gif directions(to be exact i jus sit n wait lo.) princess ma.

taste nt bad.. i m eatin them nw..

my crm of mushrm cumin up..

=)) western dinner.

dear couples out der. cookin is real real fun, n better than dinnin outside. i m gettin bored of outside food, i eat them evryday. because for than 12 hrs a day i m nt at hm .

so many days din blog. i was sick since last week!!! i drank lots of herbal medicine.. flu medicine

i jus cant get well. its the viruses.. i nit antibioticts.

well well, kenneth jus get an insurance for mii.

woo.. i wil be rich in 25 yrs time. haha.

i have done my shoppings.. done my hair...

I SIMPLY GT NTH BETTER TO DO NW, NO WHERE TO GO LER. BOREEEDDD=/

.... bac to my spag. yum yum yum..

happily ever after. =)

2007-06-09T12:02:00.001-07:00

todae is juan's big day. i m nt the bride , i mean we are nt.. but we are equally tired.

the nite before the weddn, i was terribly sick, nose block, severe lost of voice.

n i wrrk til 1 am.. went supper at 3.. do pedicure at 4am.. fall asleep at 5 plus.. wake up at 6 plus - juans is gettin married to wen ping in few hrs time..

5 of us(sisters) rushin to get make up done.. helpin each other..put on our dress.. den i m e appointed one frm juan's side to open the car door when e bridegroom arrives.

hoho cos i m the youngest among them =)

den juan was gg trough many n many tea ceremony.. wich i m quite interested at, cos first time see juan bein so polite n first time gt see the ceremony of good friend.. =) woww..

juan gt pretty weddin dress n a night gown. good good. but small misunderstandin happens la, n the new wedd nearly quarrel. luckily juans father broke it off. weddin ma.. muz be happy.

today wil be the fifth day i had nt sleep for more than 5 hrs n runnin to n fro n every wher, tmr sunday,, i gonna coma. i hope i dnt get a fever, cos when i m sick, i m veri sick.

hard to tk care de princess..

anyway today i learn alot of new things at traditional wedding. great!!

i m too tired to upload any photos, but the next blog i wil show u guys hw pretty is juan on her gown.

every gal looks great on their big day!!

gt to zz. veri shagg n tired.

yawnx =/

night night.

fuck u

2007-06-07T11:39:00.000-07:00

to u.

FUCK U LAR. I TOLD YOU NTH WIT IS INTERESTING.

WORSE BIRTHDAY, LOUSY ANNIVERSARY.

NO INTERESTIN PLANNINGS.

I DNT EVEN CARE TODAY IS OUR 1 YR ANNI K. I ALRD EXPECTED I WIL GO HM UNHAPPILY, OH YA UR DISGUSTING BOUQUET OF FLOWERS I GIV TO AH YAN ALRD.

I DNT KEEP ANYHIN THAT I M NT HAPPY OF , OR BAD MEMORIES.

HAD A NICE CHICKEN RICE YA? ! CHEE BYE. I PURPOSELY DNT WAN EAT WIT AH SOON THEY ALL. I MYSEL ARLD SO HUNGRY AND SO THIS IS THE STUPID ANNI I GET LAR? GO HONG GAN LA, I DNT ENJOY AT ALL.

U DNT EVEN DREAM WE WIL PULL THROUGH NEXT YR LA HOR, DNT EVEN DREAM.

U ARE THE WORSE GUY I HAVE EVER MET.

I M NT HAPPY WIT U, NT HAPPY U ARE WELCOME TO LEAVE.

AND OH YA, I WIL ACCEPT ANYONES FLOWERS OR ANYTHING EXCEPT URS.

HAPPY? I M HUNGRY , NO CIG COS I M TOO PISS OFF N I ACTUALLY FORGOT ABT IT.

KNN, U DIS TYPE OF GUYS, ROADSIDE GT ALOT.

I CAN GURANTEE U, WE WIL BE OVER SOON.

happy day

2007-06-03T11:45:00.000-07:00

woo lala. sho happy =)

mit ah soon at 11am to go do hair, but.. er, i over slept.. we drag n drag and we finally met up at 1.30pm @ msl mrt =/

i dye my hair n rebonded them (cos i dnt lik messy hair )

ah soon too. she gt a red head, lik chili - hurhur..

and we finishes ard 6?? sho late =x

after that we head dwn to taka, bought nth (its simply nt wad i can spend der wad)

den went to p.s..

ohh i brought a bight yellow tube top frm dorothy perkins!! 13 bucks oni. weeee..

ah soon sad lah, the top she lik dnt have her size. boo.

den went sasa bought my fav!! fake eyelashes. -my sis standin beside and luffs at this.

den spin a few rounds nth to buy.. we went bugis, and thats the best part..

i step into seiyu.. ah soon was running to dorothy perkins in hope that she can get her size.

and anna sui counter caught my eye.

and i bought the anna sui - FULL mascara. hoho happy.

den ah soon bought 4 socks -muahaa stinky feet lah ppl. i SWEAR.

den we went to village.. bought a bag.. escada perfume.. and the best part -

I GT MY N6300 WIT A 1 GB MEMORY CARD AT 410.

THE UNCLE GIV MII A $1 DISCOUNT. fuck him sial.

but its lk la, its after all wad i wan and its cheaper than shops that i have ask=), cheers.

and i keep foolin ard wit my phone the whole day.. after dinner. took 960 to wlds, paid my bills

home sweet home.

$$ matters

2007-06-02T12:42:00.002-07:00

yea!!! =)) tmr i gonna buy hp ler. gonna dye hair n rebond. and go ard big shoppin!!!
arr=/ haven go out i alrd spend 200 plus ler.
i bought majorlica majorca de blusher $28
a top frm blosson $ 16
paid for the mentholatum de facial foams n toner(i buy for biggy de) $30
bought a cute sunglass discounted @ $11
3 eyeshadow n eyeshadow case n eye galmour - $28
top up ez-link card - $50 !!
drink, ciggy, cabfare $50 =((
...
tmr dye hair / rebonding approx - $100
hp 6300 market price - $398
hp bill - $91.30
shoppin(dresses n heels for juans wedding) - approx $200
....
next week: digicam $300 above.
driving lessons, acc top up $20 min
.....

SIGH.
but everyone noe la huh.. i LONG LONG TIME NVR GO BIG SHOPPIN LER =/
because after this time i dnt noe when i wil go do my hair or buy many clothing again..
pocket burn,

but luckily some kind " donations" frm biggy.
hes sponsoring $100 for my hp.
and paying for the clthings i buy in shop
n the dresses n heels i getting for juans wedding =))
cheers!!

p.s.. i m meeting ah soon later on at 11am to do hair..
my shoppin trip is goin to begin..
*clap, weee...

yea!! =)

2007-06-02T12:42:00.001-07:00

faded.

2007-05-31T10:56:00.000-07:00

so many days din see biggy ler. I DNT MISS HIM ANYMORE.

R/S ON THE CRUCIAL END. duh.. dnt feel lik talkiin abt him..

yea =) today i counted my pay. my hard wrkk n efforts. but they wil be soon gone. remb the hp n the camera thingy. cannot count on biggy. no use. he wnt bothr. no surprise no nth. BORED.

SO HOW?? the pinky vodaphone or the sleek 6300??? !!!!

but the vodaphone is so damn princessy .. aww.. but i lik 6300 cos it veri slim n simple. once i buy either 1 of em.. it wil be long long time den i wil change my phone again. i dnt really need the camera function cos i buyin a cam. DUH =X

some one outder, pls help mii choose.. sigh...

veri tired. cine veri crowded. tiring weekends lah.

ytd til 2am. today public holiday damn busy. tmr til 1 am. sat til 2 am

by the time, sunday off. i alrd gt no strength to shoppppp . wahaa.

and oh ya, i gonna dye my hair (my last dye was b4 chinese new year) nw my hair col veri ugly =//

i dnt lik. most prob i wil dye black (that time i do that, ppl say i looked veri asean dolly de hor)

but black is sho boring and i am considering to do hazel or healthy brown.

lol. fickled minded.

but that wad it takes to make a perfect decision and the best for oursel. isnt it ?

zzz. macdonalds jus come . HUNGRY!!

online

2007-05-29T11:11:00.000-07:00

wooh. i saw some nice dresses n bagss online today. i quite lik em. most prob i wanna get them =) show u sum of em :

p.s the pink 1 chose by biggy!!! oh my.. enci so princessy =)

SADDED

2007-05-28T11:30:00.000-07:00

yea. tmr i offy. =)

aiiya.. also dnt noe wher to go..

i won a BIG PINK BEAR AGAIN!!! @ last day of uk funfair. cool rite?

some how this mth de pay day is lik so far away. - been waiting la, thats why.

jus nw went yishun ate nasi lemak wit ah soon n juan n biggy. *BURP. SATISFIED.

.. wow i touchy juans stomach. its really different! u can feel the skin is bein stretched n nt the kind of "thick" skins we have on our body. its really cool =) cos 1st time close friend pregnant, and u get to noe at each step of pregnancy, wad had happen or wad had changed.

i think she muz be enjoyin the big changes nw. haaha. =p

its good that she enjoy everythin of it..

for some nt so fortunate wan.. they wil always be rackin their brains to keep or nt to.

and hw to support the baby or its either the guy dnt wan keep or the gal dnt wan keep.. this kind of problems. jus look at them in the good way la. aiiyo.

=( i wanted a hp so badly.. GST rising again.. which means hp wil cost more.

but i wanted a digicam too..

luckily biggy givin mii a bit of money.. frm der i wil try to sort it out.

nt i dnt wan spend la.. is i really veri STINGY. lol=(

biggy got a new job. this time round he dnt nit drive a big big lorry(quite exciting la)

nw he drove a van. gt family de feeling. small yet spacious but messy. lol

i wanna drive too. but always waste money book lesson also nvr go.

part of it oso biggy fault. i say ur fault means ur fault. !

.. awhile more i gonna remove make up, watch the yang cheng ling that r21 movie -

spider lillies.. (lesbians).

ah soon gt them frm the cheena aunty petalling pirated disc.

tmr den tell u all nice or nt.

i really gettin more n more sian of this r/s

feeling faded.

my expectations are higher.. if u cant follow up, better leave.

because human step higher everyday .

u should noe i dnt care u are a man or wad soever. i want it, means i want it. if der is stil so much things to say, den dnt do it. jus leave. simple as that.

i m livin a life of how a princess live hers.

SICK N TIRED OF ALL THIS.

SOME TIMES I MISSES THE TIME WHEN I CHOOSE TO BE SINGLE.

GUYS HANG ARD.. WANTIN UR ATTENTION. U SMILE N BE NICE..

BUT .. IN THE END U JUS TELL HIM..

U JUS TRT HIM AS A NORM FRIEND.

U GO ANYWHERE U LIK.

SINGLE ROCKS. I WANNA BE MYSEL.

jus another day

2007-05-24T09:45:00.000-07:00

BURP... lol nice dinner. curry chicky cook by mummy (ah fu). lol she gt this name cos she was wearing a t shirt wit the wrd 'FU' on it. wahaha.

***stretch, light up a stix =)

well today at least better.. my victoria secrets moved. COOL. i really wanna show u ppl how cool(NICE I MEAN) this fragrances are. but it nt the time yet..

gt entertained by terrance SO HE THINK ITS SO GREAT DE magic tricks..

fishy dinner by biggy- its really nt nice nt i bein choosy.

and jian bang's lame topics :/

HA..... HA =/

GALS.. READY? ITS GREAT SINGAPORE SALES ON THE WAY!!!

YES!!! GREAT TIMING. MTH END = PAY DAY!!

$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$

jia you jia you!

2007-05-23T10:30:00.000-07:00

die la =/ cine dyin ler. the crowd gettin more n more ridiculous.
my sales gettin worse =/
DIE.
but its ok.. try again, try harder!
smth sold is better than none.

today went china town ck that frog porridge der eat wit ah soon ..
some one frm the next table call mii --- gabriel.
lol, last time he was wit rino onion wei le one group de always go rush.
he is some one whom i claim is the nicest lookin among all..
jus nw saw him.. somw how he change -- ALOT FATTER. oh my god.
but things no longer the same. they are no longer f4. everyboday gt new friends ler.

*shake head, bad day.
bu guo mei guan xi la,, xiao yi xiao mei shen me da bu liao!!!
lokin forward to endless better tmr.
jia you jia you!!

targets

2007-05-22T11:00:00.000-07:00

.. june is comiing.. pay comiin too =)

- get a nice dressy prepared for juan's wedding.

- get a digital cam (hate that someone who stole my cam)

- dye hair - makes no diff cos i wil be doin japp-wanna- be- colour.lol

-a pair of real nice heels, its hard to meet my standard- n oh my! i dnt wear heels.

-i wannn the escada new sunset perfume. its sooo orangy, sunkissed xD

- save money!

that some one promise mii a holiday? brim mii?? save it. we wil go dutch.

step

2007-05-22T10:20:00.000-07:00

ohh.. so my irritating brother gt a blog la.. STEP. wrote him n his gf.

come on la. u are jus a kid ursel.. dnt bother to say wadsoever shes stil young. drink n got drunk?

U CANT EVEN DRIINK AT ALL CAN. and DNT EVER DROP DEAD ON MY BED AGAIN.

jus becos i gt a bigger bed n a nicer bedroom?

**** bored.. i din went out the whole day. stay at hm n rot.

i m startin to hate n hate U.

really gt no strength to bother wit u.

idiot u, biggy U SUCKS.

I WANNA GO HOLIDAY.

CAN ANYONE JUS BRIM MII AWAY?

I MISS THE FUNS N THE GREAT TIME I ALWAYS HAD DURING HOLIDAYS!!

.... * stretch.. * yawn. hot sunny aftnoon.

2007-05-22T02:30:00.000-07:00

finally i see smth 'normal' - last few days i always complain this bloggy thing is nt wrkkin properly..

tuesday, 22/ 05 - 5.30pm
i jus wake up! shock to see that fat ass online- so u quitted ur job?
conclusion- nt everyone is as hardwrkkkin as a taurus gal (born on e 22 / 04 wad u think? xD)

ohh my sister juan.. she gettin married on the 9th nex mth!!!! congrats *shake ur hands.
wonderin wad should i wear.. dresses?? nice top? hairstyle? wadever.

i wanna go out. i m BORED. i m BROKE.
:/

aww..

2007-05-12T06:19:00.000-07:00

so tired n sleepy :/
in shop now.. using kats portable modem..
time now is 9.18 Pm 5 more hrd to go.
so i think my hse comm is spoil =x
i can blog properly here..
that day i was tryin to talk abt hong chang. lol
he ask mii out - to a chalet. wad good timing.. had a big fight wit biggy..
but sorry chang, u left my world long ago ler.
it took mii great efforts n years to forget u .. took many drop of tears too .
everything wil no longer be the same.. i m no longer the enci u use to noe.
when i say i wish u happiness, i really do. i guess u can find some one that really can suit u.
see? nt the xiao mei mei u noe ler. i dnt talk lyk last time ler. =)

.... meanwhile i guess biggy is bzy at supermarket shopppin for UDON n i m gonna have my favorite chicky wengs (oni biggy noe wad i mean ) later! its a dinnerbiggy promise mii..
woooooo... udon udon here i cum :p

**** ytd we watch UDON and i keep feel lik eating udon..
tmr go cut hair.. fringe very long ler.. misses my wawa fringe alot :x
............ [ no pict today.. i look nt the enci u guys noe; i m TIRED]

i really angry ler

2007-05-09T09:46:00.001-07:00

i really angry ler. =x

i cant blog properly for 2 days le

i cant load all my stuff. better make it short

if nt waste effort again.

biggy i hate u!

yell at mii over vcd. u are out of ur mind.

u better remember i never lose before

and i m forever nt in any wrong!

u sucks.

2007-05-09T09:26:00.001-07:00

testing..

zzzz.

2007-05-03T11:35:00.001-07:00

stupid loh loh. waste my time waitin n waiting. jus for my bdae pict.

until now stil dnt wan go online.

in the mean time.

say cheese! =)

around of applause for u.

2007-05-03T09:29:00.001-07:00

ahhh!!
whers the blog i type earlier on. nt here nt der.
uhh.
sigh. i was talkin abt debbie, the one tat juan always mention
and u noe .. she is such a oh- so - u-think- u- can dance- girl. lol
legs wider n wider apart. bendin lower n lower
right infront of all my customer.
claps!
a 27 yr o mama wit a i yr o bb.
and she fights too, she claims.
i noe its common but when u see her face..
laughs!!

interesting ppl everywher

waste myy money! :x

2007-04-30T05:03:00.000-07:00

booooooooooooo! ytd.. i spend 24 bucks to buy the first proper 4-d of my life =(
i bought biggy company car no. (4076)
guess wad? it came out (4077)
DER GOES MY 24 BUCKS!!!
but oso nt bad lars.. i m jus one number away to the winning number.

.... and the fate of the 4-d ticket?
i gif it to my bb sister n she happily gif it to my father
tellin him he had drop his 4-d tickets and she found it.
no more 4-d for mii.
and, biggy, i did nt strike so i wan u to pay mii my $24!!!

first blogg!!!

2007-04-28T05:23:00.000-07:00

=)) yea yea yea. i gt my own blog ler. u noe, when i hear almost all

my friends jus keep on say abt blog blog blog.. and i was lik ;

uh i got no blog.

thanks meow for this setup- of - my- blog cheers :)

i wil try try try, to blog as often as i can.. tough no one cares.

BIGGY, try findiing mii here!!! bleahp xD.